Acting...Has To Be Exhausting...

Verona L. Jacobs, Poet, Author
Jun 29, 2016
2 min read

I write what flows from my heart…and it flows all the time. If I don’t write it down or record it in some way…it’s gone. I couldn’t sleep the other night and just lay there thinking how badly I wanted to go to sleep. Somewhere around 3am messages started flowing, as is usually the case throughout the day. I continued to try to ignore the messages as I tried to focus on the fact that I just, simply, wanted to go to sleep. I finally gave up and even though too exhausted to get up and turn on a light…I grabbed my tablet and pen…always within reach…and started writing in the dark, with the hope that I would be able to read it the next morning. After I wrote that one…another one flowed from my heart to paper…still in the dark. Interesting enough, I fell asleep right after these messages were in written form. The next morning, this is what I read:

Acting…has to be exhausting...

To act like someone you’re not…

To act like you’re a Christian, when you’re not…

To act like you’re not a Christian, when you know in your heart you are…

To act like you want to be with someone, when you don’t…

To act like you don’t want to be with someone, when you do…

To act like your dream is your dream, when it’s someone else’s…

To act like you are a kind person, when mean is what comes natural…

To act like you are mean when kindness is what’s in your heart…

To act like you care, when you couldn’t care less…

Acting…when does it stop

When will it be what it is…